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Survey to End All Surveys
Yes, I am weakening on all fronts:
What is your name?: Brian
Are you named after anyone?: My uncle
What's your screename?: Lt. Murnau
Would you name a child of yours after you?: no
If you were born a member of the opposite sex what would your name be?: not my choice
If you could switch names with a friend who would it be?: no
Are there any mispronounciations/typos that ppl do w/ your name constantly?: "Brain". I really fucking hate that.
Would you drop your last name if you became famous?: If I ever became famous it would be because of my last name.
Basics
Your gender:: male
Straight/Gay/Bi:: straight
Single?: no, unfortunately
If not, do you want to be?: yes
Birthdate:: 24 Oct 64
Your age:: 39
Age you act:: 30s
Age you wish you were:: 25
Your height:: 5'10"
Eye color:: hazel
Happy with it?: sure
Hair color:: dark brown
Happy with it?: too long right now
Lefty/righty/ambidextrous:: lefty
Your living arrangement:: uncomfortable
Your family:: which one, blood or manufactured?
Have any pets?: no
Whats your job?: desk work
Piercings?: no
Tattoos?: one
Obsessions?: yeah, lots
Addictions?: dunno - procrastination?
Do you speak another language?: Bits of French, German, Japanese
Have a favorite quote?: "I am not bitter. I am tangy."
Do you have a webpage?: http://www.islandnet.com/~citizenx
Do you live in the moment?: no, it's very hard for me to do
Do you consider yourself tolerant of others?: less so lately
Do you have any secrets?: yeah, some
Do you hate yourself?: yes
Do you like your handwriting?: I print. It's awful.
Do you have any bad habits?: lots
What is the compliment you get from most people?: can't remember
If a movie was made about your life, what would it be called?: "The Whims of Strangers"
What's your biggest fear?: confrontation
Can you sing?: sort of
Do you ever pretend to be someone else just to look cool?: What? No.
Are you a loner?: yes but I don't want to be.
What are your #1 priorities in life?: Quest for knowledge and to stay true to self and morals.
If you were another person, would you be friends with you?: I guess.
Are you a daredevil?: no.
Is there anything you fear or hate about yourself?: guilt; overweening sense of responsibility; morbidly self-conscious; lonely; depressive; emotionally unstable; indecisiveness
Are you passive or agressive?: passive
Do you have a journal?: yes
What is your greatest strength and weakness?: Sense of humour and capacity for all kinds of pain.
If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be?: Accept me for me.
Do you think you are emotionally strong?: yes
Is there anything you regret doing/not doing in life?: sure, lots of things
Do you think life has been good so far?: no
What is the most important lesson you've learned from life?: That good things don't happen to good people.
What do you like the most about your body?: I like my eyes.
And least?: stomach
Do you think you are good looking?: not really
Are you confident?: not right now
What is the fictional character you are most like?: no idea
Are you perceived wrongly?: yes
Do You...
Smoke?: no
Do drugs?: usually no
Read the newspaper?: online
Pray?: no
Go to church?: no
Talk to strangers who IM you?: no
Sleep with stuffed animals?: no
Take walks in the rain?: no, unless I have to
Talk to people even though you hate them?: no
Drive?: no
Would or Have You Ever?
Liked your voice?: no. Too nasal.
Hurt yourself?: yes.
Been out of the country?: yes.
Eaten something that made other people sick?: no
Been in love?: yes.
Done drugs?: yes.
Gone skinny dipping?: yes.
Had a medical emergency?: yes.
Had surgery?: lots and lots of 'em!
Ran away from home?: no.
Played strip poker?: no.
Gotten beaten up?: no.
Beaten someone up?: no.
Been picked on?: yes.
Been on stage?: kind of.
Slept outdoors?: sure.
Thought about suicide?: yes.
Pulled an all nighter?: oh yes
If yes, what is your record?: two days
Gone one day without food?: yes.
Talked on the phone all night?: no.
Slept together with the opposite sex w/o actually having sex?: plenty of times.
Slept all day?: no.
Made out with a stranger?: yes
Had sex with a stranger?: no.
Thought you're going crazy?: yes
Kissed the same sex?: yes.
Done anything sexual with the same sex?: yes.
Been betrayed?: yes
Had a dream that came true?: no
Broken the law?: yes
Met a famous person?: I've met people you'll never meet, dasforsure.
Have you ever killed an animal by accident?: yes.
On purpose?: yes, hunting.
Told a secret you swore you wouldn't tell?: no.
Stolen anything?: yes.
Been on radio/tv?: yes.
Been in a mosh-pit?: no
Had a nervous breakdown?: not yet.
Bungee jumped?: no.
Had a dream that kept coming back?: no
Beliefs
Belive in life on other planets?: yes.
Miracles?: no.
Astrology?: no.
Magic?: no.
God?: no.
Satan?: no.
Santa?: no.
Ghosts?: no.
Luck?: no.
Love at first sight?: yes.
Yin and yang (that good cant exist w/o bad)?: yes
Witches?: no.
Easter bunny?: no, never did.
Do you wish on stars?: no
Deep Theological Questions
Do you believe in the traditional view of Heaven and Hell?: no.
Do you think God has a gender?: no.
Do you believe in organized religion?: For other people, yes. Not for me.
Where do you think we go when we die?: into the earth.
Friends
Do you have any gay/lesbian friends?: yes, but that's not why they are my friends.
Who is your best friend?: John or Gary, can't decide.
Who's the one person that knows most about you?: John or Gary, can't decide.
What's the best advice that anyone has ever given to you?: don't know
Your favourite inside joke?: my calculus joke
Thing you're picked on most about?: my indecisiveness
Who's your longest known friend?: Gary
Last person you talked to online?: Shada
Who do you talk to most online?: Scuttle, but not right now
Who are you on the phone with most?: Gary
Have you ever thought of having sex with a friend?: yes.
Who's your second family?: What do you mean?
Do you always feel understood?: no
Do you trust others easily?: no.
Who's house were you last at?: John's
Name one person who's arms you feel safe in:: Betty's
Do your friends know you?: some more than others
Friend that lives farthest away:: Bill (NYC)
Do you consider love a mistake?: sometimes, yes
What do you find romantic?: being able to be my normal self with someone.
Turn-on?: smile.
Turn-off?: frown.
First kiss?: don't remember.
If someone you had no interest in had interest in dating you how would you feel?: flattered and embarassed.
Do you prefer knowing someone before dating them or going: yes.
Have you ever been romantically attracted to someone physically unattractive: yes
Do you think the opposite sex finds you good looking?: some do.
What is best about the opposite sex?: interest, warmth
What is the worst thing about the opposite sex?: don't speak straight
What's the last present someone gave you?: mbira
Are you in love?: I think so.
Do you consider your significant other hot?: yes.
Who Was the Last Person...
That haunted you?: Alice.
You wanted to kill?: can't tell you
That you laughed at?: Aki
That laughed at you?: John
That turned you on?: Betty.
You went shopping with?: Betty
That broke your heart?: Alice.
To disappoint you?: Mitsuko.
To ask you out?: Betty
To make you cry?: Betty
To brighten up your day?: Betty
That you thought about?: Betty (see a pattern here?).
You saw a movie with?: Betty
You talked to on the phone?: Dad
You talked to through IM/ICQ?: shada
You saw?: Dawn
Right This Moment...
Are you going out?: yeah, early lunch.
Will it be with your significant other?: no.
Or some random person?: no
What are you wearing right now?: dark-blue tactical pants
Body part you're touching right now:: chin
What are you worried about right now?: my "situation"
What book are you reading?: Star Beast
What's on your mousepad?: Mao Zedong
Use 5 words to describe how you're feeling:: worried, panicky, trapped, anxious, guilty
Are you bored?: yes.
Are you tired?: yes, all the time.
Are you talking to anyone online?: no
Are you talking to anyone on the phone?: no.
Are you lonely or content?: ver disturbed.
Are you listening to music?: no.
God, that was pointless....
What is your name?: Brian
Are you named after anyone?: My uncle
What's your screename?: Lt. Murnau
Would you name a child of yours after you?: no
If you were born a member of the opposite sex what would your name be?: not my choice
If you could switch names with a friend who would it be?: no
Are there any mispronounciations/typos that ppl do w/ your name constantly?: "Brain". I really fucking hate that.
Would you drop your last name if you became famous?: If I ever became famous it would be because of my last name.
Basics
Your gender:: male
Straight/Gay/Bi:: straight
Single?: no, unfortunately
If not, do you want to be?: yes
Birthdate:: 24 Oct 64
Your age:: 39
Age you act:: 30s
Age you wish you were:: 25
Your height:: 5'10"
Eye color:: hazel
Happy with it?: sure
Hair color:: dark brown
Happy with it?: too long right now
Lefty/righty/ambidextrous:: lefty
Your living arrangement:: uncomfortable
Your family:: which one, blood or manufactured?
Have any pets?: no
Whats your job?: desk work
Piercings?: no
Tattoos?: one
Obsessions?: yeah, lots
Addictions?: dunno - procrastination?
Do you speak another language?: Bits of French, German, Japanese
Have a favorite quote?: "I am not bitter. I am tangy."
Do you have a webpage?: http://www.islandnet.com/~citizenx
Do you live in the moment?: no, it's very hard for me to do
Do you consider yourself tolerant of others?: less so lately
Do you have any secrets?: yeah, some
Do you hate yourself?: yes
Do you like your handwriting?: I print. It's awful.
Do you have any bad habits?: lots
What is the compliment you get from most people?: can't remember
If a movie was made about your life, what would it be called?: "The Whims of Strangers"
What's your biggest fear?: confrontation
Can you sing?: sort of
Do you ever pretend to be someone else just to look cool?: What? No.
Are you a loner?: yes but I don't want to be.
What are your #1 priorities in life?: Quest for knowledge and to stay true to self and morals.
If you were another person, would you be friends with you?: I guess.
Are you a daredevil?: no.
Is there anything you fear or hate about yourself?: guilt; overweening sense of responsibility; morbidly self-conscious; lonely; depressive; emotionally unstable; indecisiveness
Are you passive or agressive?: passive
Do you have a journal?: yes
What is your greatest strength and weakness?: Sense of humour and capacity for all kinds of pain.
If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be?: Accept me for me.
Do you think you are emotionally strong?: yes
Is there anything you regret doing/not doing in life?: sure, lots of things
Do you think life has been good so far?: no
What is the most important lesson you've learned from life?: That good things don't happen to good people.
What do you like the most about your body?: I like my eyes.
And least?: stomach
Do you think you are good looking?: not really
Are you confident?: not right now
What is the fictional character you are most like?: no idea
Are you perceived wrongly?: yes
Do You...
Smoke?: no
Do drugs?: usually no
Read the newspaper?: online
Pray?: no
Go to church?: no
Talk to strangers who IM you?: no
Sleep with stuffed animals?: no
Take walks in the rain?: no, unless I have to
Talk to people even though you hate them?: no
Drive?: no
Would or Have You Ever?
Liked your voice?: no. Too nasal.
Hurt yourself?: yes.
Been out of the country?: yes.
Eaten something that made other people sick?: no
Been in love?: yes.
Done drugs?: yes.
Gone skinny dipping?: yes.
Had a medical emergency?: yes.
Had surgery?: lots and lots of 'em!
Ran away from home?: no.
Played strip poker?: no.
Gotten beaten up?: no.
Beaten someone up?: no.
Been picked on?: yes.
Been on stage?: kind of.
Slept outdoors?: sure.
Thought about suicide?: yes.
Pulled an all nighter?: oh yes
If yes, what is your record?: two days
Gone one day without food?: yes.
Talked on the phone all night?: no.
Slept together with the opposite sex w/o actually having sex?: plenty of times.
Slept all day?: no.
Made out with a stranger?: yes
Had sex with a stranger?: no.
Thought you're going crazy?: yes
Kissed the same sex?: yes.
Done anything sexual with the same sex?: yes.
Been betrayed?: yes
Had a dream that came true?: no
Broken the law?: yes
Met a famous person?: I've met people you'll never meet, dasforsure.
Have you ever killed an animal by accident?: yes.
On purpose?: yes, hunting.
Told a secret you swore you wouldn't tell?: no.
Stolen anything?: yes.
Been on radio/tv?: yes.
Been in a mosh-pit?: no
Had a nervous breakdown?: not yet.
Bungee jumped?: no.
Had a dream that kept coming back?: no
Beliefs
Belive in life on other planets?: yes.
Miracles?: no.
Astrology?: no.
Magic?: no.
God?: no.
Satan?: no.
Santa?: no.
Ghosts?: no.
Luck?: no.
Love at first sight?: yes.
Yin and yang (that good cant exist w/o bad)?: yes
Witches?: no.
Easter bunny?: no, never did.
Do you wish on stars?: no
Deep Theological Questions
Do you believe in the traditional view of Heaven and Hell?: no.
Do you think God has a gender?: no.
Do you believe in organized religion?: For other people, yes. Not for me.
Where do you think we go when we die?: into the earth.
Friends
Do you have any gay/lesbian friends?: yes, but that's not why they are my friends.
Who is your best friend?: John or Gary, can't decide.
Who's the one person that knows most about you?: John or Gary, can't decide.
What's the best advice that anyone has ever given to you?: don't know
Your favourite inside joke?: my calculus joke
Thing you're picked on most about?: my indecisiveness
Who's your longest known friend?: Gary
Last person you talked to online?: Shada
Who do you talk to most online?: Scuttle, but not right now
Who are you on the phone with most?: Gary
Have you ever thought of having sex with a friend?: yes.
Who's your second family?: What do you mean?
Do you always feel understood?: no
Do you trust others easily?: no.
Who's house were you last at?: John's
Name one person who's arms you feel safe in:: Betty's
Do your friends know you?: some more than others
Friend that lives farthest away:: Bill (NYC)
Do you consider love a mistake?: sometimes, yes
What do you find romantic?: being able to be my normal self with someone.
Turn-on?: smile.
Turn-off?: frown.
First kiss?: don't remember.
If someone you had no interest in had interest in dating you how would you feel?: flattered and embarassed.
Do you prefer knowing someone before dating them or going: yes.
Have you ever been romantically attracted to someone physically unattractive: yes
Do you think the opposite sex finds you good looking?: some do.
What is best about the opposite sex?: interest, warmth
What is the worst thing about the opposite sex?: don't speak straight
What's the last present someone gave you?: mbira
Are you in love?: I think so.
Do you consider your significant other hot?: yes.
Who Was the Last Person...
That haunted you?: Alice.
You wanted to kill?: can't tell you
That you laughed at?: Aki
That laughed at you?: John
That turned you on?: Betty.
You went shopping with?: Betty
That broke your heart?: Alice.
To disappoint you?: Mitsuko.
To ask you out?: Betty
To make you cry?: Betty
To brighten up your day?: Betty
That you thought about?: Betty (see a pattern here?).
You saw a movie with?: Betty
You talked to on the phone?: Dad
You talked to through IM/ICQ?: shada
You saw?: Dawn
Right This Moment...
Are you going out?: yeah, early lunch.
Will it be with your significant other?: no.
Or some random person?: no
What are you wearing right now?: dark-blue tactical pants
Body part you're touching right now:: chin
What are you worried about right now?: my "situation"
What book are you reading?: Star Beast
What's on your mousepad?: Mao Zedong
Use 5 words to describe how you're feeling:: worried, panicky, trapped, anxious, guilty
Are you bored?: yes.
Are you tired?: yes, all the time.
Are you talking to anyone online?: no
Are you talking to anyone on the phone?: no.
Are you lonely or content?: ver disturbed.
Are you listening to music?: no.
God, that was pointless....
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Schade.
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Sorry. About. That.
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Well, are you free any time in the future for coffee?
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